when all ends

hey peeps!!

almost 2 months since my last update!

my gosh~ how time flies~

well~for my concern in SPM* totally ignored chinese! ><*

heh =)

POLLY AH!!

you really have that power to motivate me to update my blog d!

but last time i really really tired liao, so now only update d..LOL

ok, regarding my last post

i'm alright now =) 

i have to thank a person as well

hey, you said that you always stalk my blog d

so THANK YOU! =)

you are actually the first person who wrote to me that really wanna makes me cry d

even with those few words with your big handwriting~ 

i really appreciate how you take me so dearly as you friend =)

thank you really really really much! <3

kinda lots of you guys describe me as a really good person inside my booklet

thanks~ but i don't think so la~ 

ahahaha, but still~ have to thank you guys very much la!

there are still one more subject until SPM is officially over!

but i would like to say

to peeps:

i wish you guys with a bright future

high school graduation is just the end of a chapter in our life

lets start a new chapter in our own life 

like a white cloth painted with colourful memories again

and cherish within our heart once again =)

i'm sorry that i might not be the greatest friend or a person in you heart

but still i really do hope you guys won't forget about me..

coz one day, if i've lost my memories, or totally forgotten about you guys

i wish you guys are the one, to tell me, the crazy time we had together...=3

eventhough we have photos now

but these are only images, which cannot be compare, 

to the true words from the bottom of friends heart C= 

BE HAPPY ALWAYS OK? 

PROMISE?? ^-^

矛盾的白痴

有些事情，不是说我们希望就会得逞，我希望我的朋友永远都不要忘记我，这是没有可能的事情。我曾经为了朋友而付出过代价，你问我当时付出太多是否后悔，我会说否，因为当时的我觉得值得的，你问我现在是否因为当时的付出而后悔，我答案还是一样，没有后悔，因为我曾经付出过真心，曾经因为“义气”两个字找寻到了信任，笑容，欢乐，回忆，还有很多很多啦～

根据上一次的文章。。我觉得现在的我很矛盾，我现在很想再一次付出真心，但会变成他人觉得虚伪的面具吗？还是再次的，是我想太多了？可能吧，因为我讲过很多次了，我是个太会胡思乱想的人，有时候我会把一些小小的事情看得太过严重，夸大到不能在夸大，但有些事情，我看得那么重，因为我很在意我是否是一个值得信任的朋友，很希望你亲口告诉我讲真相。

我必先警惕各位，现在的我，向着你微笑，不一定是来自真心的微笑，因为现在的我真的不知道，到底我是真心还是虚伪的，是真的骗人的技术太厉害了，所以连自己也骗掉，自己也察觉不到，我讲了很多废话，您可以再次不用管我所说的话，我现在真的自己讲社么也不知道。总而言之，大家请提防我。

random

a lot of people post their status on facebook as usual

but this few days

most of them had describe what i wish to say

what i wanna say

this is what i wanna say

my dear friends,

this few weeks is exam week

i know you guys are busy studying and all

i can tell myself that everyone is working hard

don't think too much

but as time flows

i can really felt that you guys don't really wanna talk much anymore with me

you may say waliao hui sing thinking too much already la

maybe

or maybe is it i'm the one don't wanna talk much?

but actually i can feel that i tried to talk with you guys

but you guys doesn't seem bother

i can lie to myself that maybe she or he didn't heard me well

ok fine~ talk next time

but how long can i lie to myself like this?

ok, XX and XX i really wanna know

what happened to us??? 

you know the older post about the person ignoring me is actually you guys

i just wanna know what happened to us

i asked you are you ignoring me you said bo a,

and the conversation after that,you only replied me one or two words,

how do you expect me to believe that you aren't ignoring me? 

coz this is not us...

last time we can talk every crap we want but now i can hardly talk to you guys much

i really tried to start talking but somehow i knew that even i tried

you won't bother anymore

just tell me

what's the problem? is it me?? if i'm the problem tell me!

just tell me can you??

i asked you guys i changed liao hor??

but you guys say no a or don't know leh

what do you think i felt?

thinking too much you may say

maybe

i don't know

now i just felt like i wanna find a person to talk with 

i have to rethink should i say it a not

would it be fake if even i tell?

am i wearing a mask in front of my friends that maybe myself didn't even realize? 

i'm actually really confuse now

am i actually wearing a mask this pass few years? 

am i?? am i lying to myself and you guys for so many years already??

F*Cking shit!! i hate all this crap!!!!!!

morning! XD

hey peeps! this would be my first post to write in the morning
now is 6.01am, i'm about to go to school in another half an hour~ Xp
today is physic...and wish me luck!! X)
coz me and physic...never linked before and don't think i can even though i want to>
so...PHYSIC!!! please accept my love!
i know you are jealous because i said to BIOLOGY before
so you have a broken and imbalanced heart...T.T sorry to break your heart...
OMG!!>
but the main point i wanna say is..
sometimes, things that you just knew
just have to keep it in heart
there is no need to tell
so just sealed your mouth
be happy for it and just make some wishes~
just wish upon a star if you saw one..=)
bye guys!!! happy studying/ exam-ing~ =DD

21.9.2011

hey peeps!
i shouldn't update my during this time of the week coz trial is not over yet
but who cares!! XDD
tomorrow is bio and wish me a lot of luck!
but now i'm getting really emotional
these few days that feeling came back again
as in, a really good friend can be your friend for today and being a stranger to you the other day
for sure! i hate that feeling!
just because of this feeling bothered me for almost a week now
i can't even concentrate in my studies...T.T
i mean, if you guys do hate me or even just felt that i shouldn't do these or that
just tell it to me face
i am willing to change!
please don't just ignore me or avoiding me
even though i am that kind of a person who likes to avoid things
i mean, ignoring people or the person being ignored doesn't feel comfortable about this you know?
haiz..i really mean it, if i have done something wrong just tell me
seriously stop ignoring me
ps~ maybe i'm just being paranoid again
well~ this is me, thinking too much again and again all the time
please excuse my weird personalities =)
fa xie wan bi!

random~

hey peeps~ 

my last update said that i won't be updating my blog until my trial is over

i guess i lied~~~XDD

this post is going to be boring ~

so i guess please leave if you're already in boredom~

totally random~

i'm proud to tell you guys~

today is the first day i ride my car all by myself alone!

XDD

even though it's just a really short distance drive

but hey!! 

i survived!! i'm still alive!!!breathing here~~ 

breath in in out out~~ XDD

thanks to god right??

LOL..anyways~

goodluck with your trials guys!!

kick exam asses!!! ADD OIL!!

FIGHTING A~~~

by the way just to give you guys a heads up~

remember this when you're in a pek chek mode~

服出一点点的努力，获得一点点的成就感，就要记得笑喔！=)

ps~~ my chinese sucks~~ so >

sorry for the poor way to express what i wanna say.

take it easy guys !! bye bye~~ 

trial O.o

hey peeps!!
trial is coming up soon
so i think this is the last post before the trial
so, recently, tried to study
yes i did studied a little
but i suddenly felt that i can't really stay focus
but still i'll try my best
by the way
i seriously love the library!! XD
and thanks to a kid
suddenly thought a little bit more further to my future
normally everyone will have plan A and Plan B in their life especially after they graduate
which they wanna be, if plan A not working, here comes plan B
but for so long now, i'm lost
today, i suddenly had the new direction
so...plan A ZOOLOGIST!!
love animals~~ hate creepy crawlies.>
plan B..a psychologist
YES..its gonna be really tough
but someone special inspired me AKA the kid=0
thanks kid =)
you really are my inspiration for my plan B
thanks! =)

it's been a while

hey peeps!

it's been a while since i updated my blog

randomly saying

i do fell in love with the library!

haha!

finally starting kick my ass to work.yeah!

but of course..with some awesome study mates XD

here's the library I used to go right now~

DOMO! XD

this is us... like to use the word DUO LUO!! XDD

haha! i love COLORS~ BIO!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

intro!! library peeps!

Xin Ning!! ahah! i love her so much!!XD andQi Chen.. anew friend that i met in the library when i started to go to the library~

my godbrother! the best one! =D

haha..so late ga update this photos!

ok..next chapter

its been a while since i talk to you...

i felt like talking to you..

but i suddenly remembered

even you passed by right beside me

i didn't say a word HI to you

or even smile to you like i always do

it's weird indeed

really do looks like that i don't know you anymore

but you don't seem care

so...i guess that's it..

the end of the chapter.

piano♥

after AGM

i told myself that I wanted to learn how to play the piano

I'm learning by myself

but it doesn't seem enough

i wanna learn it from a private tutor

to respect the piano in a correct way

learn the beauty of the instrument

but it doesn't seem that i have the chance anymore

T.T

just words aren't the way to describe it

but i really just so love the sound, the tone, the music from the piano

that's why i always took Yiruma's song as an inspiration

for example : River flows in you, kiss the rain, moonlight and so so much more!

haiz..just love the pic anyway! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

AGM

hey peeps!

well..this is really the end of my life as the Co members

got to say happy?

yes! I finally see the light from the piles of documents

no! coz..there goes my memories as the senior of a big society

for once i was a new-bee, old-bee and now and Ex-bee

a lot of emotional running through my vein

coz i don't wanna forget the times i had for these 5 years

the joy the pain ,the sadness

and because of the CO

I've change, you'll never see the Hui sing now when you see 5 years ago

the one who is arrogant and all

i pass down my secretary job to Wan Ching

the secretary of 2011/2012 committees

wish you guys good luck!! work hard ya!!

as usual~ we old ones have to step down the stage

for you guys to step up the stage

make us proud!

first day as an ex member of Co..hope you guys won't forget..the times that we'd been through for 5 years together, no matter how many times we hate each other, or even fight, and the joy we shared together,hope you guys won't forget..when the 23 of us are together as a family...♥

time flies

as they say times flies real quick

everything changes

changes are good for sometimes

but sometimes...it won't bring much happiness

you are my best friend

but as time changes

you WERE my best friend

everything change

you change as well

sometimes..you are not the one that i met a few years back

is this the real you?

are you wearing a mask facing me for all these years?

is that really you?

for once being so kind to me?

is this really really you?

for once that i take you as a really good friend

a friend that everyone trust so much

a friend that can have bring joy for us

a friend that can have tons of joke with us

a friend that we could talk to heart by heart

i wanted to talk to you

telling you that you have changed

but somehow..somethings have to keep it to ourselves

from being harmed again..

coz you disappointed me once

i'm not cold hearted...

i just don't want to be harmed from you anymore..

once...is just enough..

really hope the old you will come back to us..

the one we call as a family......

happy day!!

hey peeps!!

i feel amazing now!

Happy as i'll ever be!!

first is~~

I LEARNT HOW TO DRIVE A CAR!!

just went for the first lesson this afternoon!

so so so horrifying!! yet!!

SO SO SO SO SO EXCITING!!!! XD

2nd!

I wasn't the lucky one to go NS!!

hooray!!!

XDD....but hor..think again..

I don't have the chance to loss weight...

i wanna have some special memories in my life..so i think i will go..

but again..it's a bit waste of time..=.=!!

真的是自相矛盾~ =.=!!!

3rd

I finally can throw away a huge huge bag of pain!!

now is a sign of relief..XD

I glad everything work out!! so so so happy!

these two days are my happy day!! XD

yeah!!!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!! =DD ^-^

annual concert!!

hey peeps!

our school annual concert just past!

OH MY GOODNESS!

can you believe it?

the last time performing already!

it went super duper well!!

haha!

i think the most successful annual concert ever!! XD

here are one of the video!

the choirs really work it! love the video!!

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=2227546934393&comments

just go to this link and listen to it!

I guarantee you will like it!

they are too yeng liao!!

haha! best night ever~

i can't wait for the DVD of the annual concert to come out!

fell in love with our drama! XD

just way way too touching..

when the little boy scream! you can seriously feel the pain he is having

it's like piercing through your heart! O.O

random pics! XD

hehe! Zhou Hai's NO.1 post!! cute! ^^

erm..some random pictures i love the most! XD

nice right?

this is called 临时抱佛脚! LOL
me and mayple! =D
have to hide my fats!! Yong Ming! my "chu lian qing ren"! haha!
me and Xin Ning! yeah!

i'm the shortest again...T.T

this little dude..got shocked when hearing me singing..he can't believe that i could sing..ish..=.=

me and Pei Nee! BFF~

me with the principal!! XD MR.Goh~

me and little bro Jun Xian!..he just have to bend his knees..=.=
me and chi mun!!

haha!! our school's PHANTOM! like!

hehe! last year 4S3 eh! XD

yeah!XD

conclusion! i haven't take pictures with a lot a lot of friends yet! OMG!
have to make appointments liao..=.=
BYE! XD

Summary for Jun 2011

hey guys!!!

OH MY GOD..

lately i'm seriously getting lazy to update my blog

but love to chat box on facebook! >

tomorrow is the second last day for me to perform as the CO member..

i can't believe time flies so so so so fast!!

T.T..but face it..its reality

summary for Jun is i just came back from Shang hai!!

Get to found out how horrible my result is

and also happened way too much stuffs just within this month!

a list is not enough to write it down! =.=!!

but within this month, i gain a lot of trust from a lot of my friends~

i'm actually really happy to hear that! coz they do trust me as their friend..

I AM TRUSTWORTHY!! ^.^

thanks guys!! that really made me smile and laugh a lot compare to the last post! ^^

laughter is all around but also misunderstanding situation also happened

and first time in my life history!

I HATE A PERSON UNTIL THE MAXIMUM LEVEL!

if you saw my Facebook status..that was the climax of my hatred system~

LOL! but i'm not a person that will keep my hatred forever so after a few days..

i have no hatred towards her already! =D

Here are some of my FAV pics~

ahaha!

like!!

haha! our expression! XD LIKE LIKE LIKE

hehe! like! MONSTER standing between me and Pei Nee~

Yeong chee's face~=.=

东方明珠塔!! nice nice! great view~

Group 4!! go ER hu And Zhong hu!! XD

two years back eh Group zhong hu!! ♥♥♥

During the Shang Hai Trip~~

us! becaming models as well! not bad at all!! in fact had tons of fun! XDD

nice! =D

hehe! XD

haha~

like!!

our modeling skills are getting better! XD

tree~

=.=!!!

form 5!!!

yeah form 5!! ♥♥♥

random~XD

i just like this two pictures! XD all 63 of us~

during this Shang Hai trip! i have tons of fun! bought a lot of stuffs! spend most of the money!! T.T

but when the day i came back from Shang Hai..

my grandma passed a way, i was luckily the last one to see her before she goes RIP.

but i never get the chance of giving her this necklace that i bought from Shang Hai

grandma..the necklace i wanted to give you already represent everyone of us! we love you!

may you RIP in the other world together with granpa!

thats all!! bye!! XDD









hello!! now is 6.1.2012!!! 10.50pm!! LOL, you guys might think why so suddenly to edit this post again!
hahaha! isn't it suppose to be the ending of this topic! well! it should be!
but!! a friend force me to do it! MUAHHAHAHH! no la~ joking nia d =)
but like this, makes me think that he really takes me as a friend! that's why he scold me bo sim! when he was viewing my blog! and! doesn't see tiok the picture of only me and him! XD

LOL! this dude!! =) 

well~ i post liao la! XD! wei!! sorry ah!! not me bo sim ok?? ><

too many pics i lzay d...LOL!

but anyways!! =D thanks perng!! you are one of my amazing friends! 

WHO IS MADLY IN LOVE WITH AMERICAN SONGS THESE FEW MONTHS!! 

haahahaah! =) love you la! (as a friend har!) XD 

another ending of this post! =D