random

a lot of people post their status on facebook as usual

but this few days

most of them had describe what i wish to say

what i wanna say

this is what i wanna say

my dear friends,

this few weeks is exam week

i know you guys are busy studying and all

i can tell myself that everyone is working hard

don't think too much

but as time flows

i can really felt that you guys don't really wanna talk much anymore with me

you may say waliao hui sing thinking too much already la

maybe

or maybe is it i'm the one don't wanna talk much?

but actually i can feel that i tried to talk with you guys

but you guys doesn't seem bother

i can lie to myself that maybe she or he didn't heard me well

ok fine~ talk next time

but how long can i lie to myself like this?

ok, XX and XX i really wanna know

what happened to us??? 

you know the older post about the person ignoring me is actually you guys

i just wanna know what happened to us

i asked you are you ignoring me you said bo a,

and the conversation after that,you only replied me one or two words,

how do you expect me to believe that you aren't ignoring me? 

coz this is not us...

last time we can talk every crap we want but now i can hardly talk to you guys much

i really tried to start talking but somehow i knew that even i tried

you won't bother anymore

just tell me

what's the problem? is it me?? if i'm the problem tell me!

just tell me can you??

i asked you guys i changed liao hor??

but you guys say no a or don't know leh

what do you think i felt?

thinking too much you may say

maybe

i don't know

now i just felt like i wanna find a person to talk with 

i have to rethink should i say it a not

would it be fake if even i tell?

am i wearing a mask in front of my friends that maybe myself didn't even realize? 

i'm actually really confuse now

am i actually wearing a mask this pass few years? 

am i?? am i lying to myself and you guys for so many years already??

F*Cking shit!! i hate all this crap!!!!!!