i had it!

i haven't been using the computer for the last few weeks~

and i guess a lot of people may know why~

because of i have to practice everyday at school~

OMG!

i am actually really sick of having the Chinese Orchestra life~

i hate that kind of life~

always have to do a lot of stuffs!

worst is my group members are really....

i don' know how to describe~

but not all of them la~

some like you tell him what to do he will just follow~

then some are like really too cincai~

and can't help me anything at all!

make me really frustrated with that!

then some making me depress!

and yes! i admit that i am really a failure being as a leader!

but i am in a whole lot of pressure!

do u even Know that?

you are still saying so stupid stuffs!

Do u really think that i don't Know all that stuffs??

if you are so clever!

just do it in your way!

i couldn't take it no more!

and i can't scold you all~

cause it will cause more tragedy~

and i can't be myself everyday~

cause it is like a war game in there~

one single step wrong ~

will be like a lot of bullets are coming right at you~and..

BAM! you are dead!

the only times that i can be myself is only with my family~

my friends~only got of one group members of Chinese Orchestra that i can be myself~

and mostly is not members of Chinese Orchestra~

if i have a choice~

i will choose to quit or just b a really normal member~

and won't have to do all the comity the stuff~

i am not obsess about being a comity!